i am really thankful to the real friends for the encouragement and support. whether i have one real friend or more than 100 real friends, it doesn't matter now. yea, i will persevere and so you must persevere in your chosen course/profession. i will persevere until i decide its time to let go.....then i will take the next step.......luckily, the poly system is like that.....the combined grades keep u safe.....
so many things to do~ sighs~
my mum was nagging at me....capital letters....and i wanted to scream, i mean a lot of people do not care about their grammar, spelling etc., and that includes my mum. spotted so many that i almost died.....because i am so particular, especially when it concerns marks.
econs is not easy to study.....and obviously i don't have much motivation in that module.....so i needed to rope her in for a econs project....as it is very cheem.....don't wanna to elaborate too much....but i leveraged on her experience with that subject. never wanna take economics in a level or anywhere else. because i have no choice, thats why i took this module.
heard laughter....and someone calling:''bella'' and ''baby''. i must be going crazy~.....
send me to an asylum......
glad that my figure got back in shape again~ maybe going to the pool to swim....so, don't judge other people's figures....u may never know what they will show.....because they can hide their real figures....maybe i will be posting pics......
and i saw the advertisement for game masters....i always wanted to become a game master since i was 11. and when i was 15, i wanted to do game programming. decided that there are more game programming roles than game master roles....
and i think i got lucky....
in the past, i think interviews for job were successful, but other kinds of interviews were not so successful.
very honoured....to be selected for a france trip after an interview....but i backed out.....so expensive and i rather go to cambodia.....(initially i went for the interview, as i thought that i wanted to go to france)
and now, i am selected as a sub-committee member for a cca. sigh~ more stress
maybe confidence is lacking....but my success rate with interviews like these is higher now~
and i should accept that i suck at singing, but i keep on singing and fighting for chances because there were some guys who go and ''por'' me.....and say that they like it......
and as for acting, someone complimented me....i think i can act decently, after the school play.....
so, i will keep on looking for alternative paths.
if there are auditions, i will go.
if i don't make it, i will accept it.
but i hope, my success rate with modelling events/competitions/talent competitions like these will increase as well....
i wanted to become a model at 11, and air stewardess....too embarassed to say that i wanted to become a model....i may not have the figure and all....
but now, i realise that modelling is not what it is cracked up to be....
i rather join MINDEF, THE ARMY or the NAVY. speaking of this, THE ARMY, NAVY and MINDEF sent me promotional letters.
i am tempted to enlist in NS.
2 YEARS OF NS will make my head clearer. and make me think better.
i want to be a boy, so i dressed in a graphic tee, shorts and slippers.
haha.
MAN, I AM NOT GIVING UP, SO YOU SHOULDN'T....
FEELING BETTER ALREADY......IF ONLY THE CIRCUMSTANCES WITH THAT BOY WEREN'T SO AWKWARD AND FUNNY......
AND PLEASE, I KNOW WHAT KIND OF HELP I NEED. AND I THINK I AM NOT READY FOR RELIGION.
AND ALSO, PEOPLE SHOULD LEARN HOW TO EMPATHISE, NOT SYMPATHISE.
IF YOU EMPATHISE, U WILL GIVE A PERSON CONCRETE HELP.
IF YOU SYMPATHISE, U WILL ACTUALLY JUST SAY:''SO PITIFUL...''
AND EMPATHISING IS UNDERSTANDING.
I SHALL END THIS WITH A QUOTE FROM XIAXUE...
okay, i shan't quote her....okay, here's the link: http://xiaxue.blogspot.sg/2012/07/sapporo-and-otaru-with-grand-park-hotel.html ....about the zoo and the zebra....felt really disgusted with zebras and their mighty erections. VERY GROSS.....
felt tempted to take a vow of celibacy...when i was in sec 3-4, i bought a ring from a store, wore it to school, and told everyone i was taking a vow of celibacy....haha......
then they all went...REALLY AH ? REALLY AH?
Are u optimistic?
Wierd?
Intuitive?
Anythin abt yourself.
- My Adores -
Chocolate?
Or maybe Vanilla?
Scented Candles?
Long walks at the beach perhaps?
- My Detests -
spoil brats perhaps?
or backstabbers?
maybe clowns?
why not cockroaches
- My Playlist -
Songs stuck in ur brain.
- The Conversations -