my life is seriously fucked up...my dressing in school is sloppy at best, like beggar at worst...$20 per clothing, and thats expensive. 365 days,so how many pieces of clothing can u have....and everyone wears a different clothing, almost everyday....and, also they are so fashionable....great.....on the social front, it is not going well...thought not wearing sch uni would be good. no, fuck that. it is only good if u have so many pieces of fashionable clothing...ii thought i could create my own identity and image, no more good girl....but with purple hair, the lecturers would not take me seriously during the presentations..and the whole system is seriously just plain mean....poly life is not what it is cracked up to be.....and i don't want to go MI anytime.....the fun part is when there are no exams or tests, during the holidays, otherwsie, its arrgh....and POA is really not interesting at all....and as if the lectures are interesting, reading at home is a better option, i wonder why do i even attend classes. and as usual, econs is like.....trying to pull it up but to no avail.....i guess its fine, but what i am trying to say is, my strong subjects which are supposed to score, are probably disadvantaged in this system....and obviously, my weak subjects can't get pulled up.....which is plain argh....and as a mum, u would ask me to attend the melbourne talk on 15 aug, clashing with the exams? yea, i could probably read on the bus, and study on the bus etc. but u are telling me to go to the uni of melbourne, then i might as well spend 1 year at stansfield college, why bother with here?
i have always mentioned that i don't like jc and poly.
thats why i am so freaking unhappy here.
anything else except overseas studies or poly +pte candidate=unhappy
being unable to do what u love is very sucky....
at least even if u were weak, maybe u would try......
and let's say, u picked up at the last min, ur gpa is already trashed.....
because its cumulative......
how was i supposed to know this system, yea, blame it on me, i never found out....but the fact is, what must i do, so that i don't end up anywhere except what i want to go.....the best grades i can get? or the worst?i was still thinking i could go for pte candidate......because when u want to become a game master, in that case, not all cases, u probably have to know french.
also, if u want to become an IT person, singapore is not the best place, other countries are better, and english is essential, french is a huge advantage......i seriously freaking don't know what i am fucking doing here....many years ago, i wouldn't have given a shit about what subjects i took.....but now i do, because with freedom to choose, you are still fucking confining me....
the worst part is, people who keep asking u whats fuckin wrong don't know the reason, they know the reason, then keep yelling at u....so why should u even talk? its a waste of time.....so i need to fucking rant some more.....i am really sick, what must i do to get out of this stupid system.....i don't know which is better.... producing good results, will not get me out, producing bad results, is either i am in, or i would get out in the worst way possible.....and fuck culture shock, it does not matter, and to hell with bullying....i don't fit in here culturally, i figure that it does not matter anymore. this is not the best way to go through the education system, let alone university.
i heard a levels in uk are quite easy, very very easy.....compared to the a levels locally.....and there are preparatory courses...having 2 bloody presentations today....and an assignment to hand up.....and some other horrid stuff....and my voice is shot!
Are u optimistic?
Wierd?
Intuitive?
Anythin abt yourself.
- My Adores -
Chocolate?
Or maybe Vanilla?
Scented Candles?
Long walks at the beach perhaps?
- My Detests -
spoil brats perhaps?
or backstabbers?
maybe clowns?
why not cockroaches
- My Playlist -
Songs stuck in ur brain.
- The Conversations -