A Black & White Movie

ps: i think i have improved somehow....in terms of service skills....i had a ad-hoc event job opportunity so i offered it to my guy friend, and my guy friend offered it to his friend.....so basically, we were working there and it was rather tiring.....it is difficult to be focused and i had to try my best not to be distracted....since it was a wedding, and i try not to imagine things too much, or panic until i feel super confused and i wouldn't know what to do.....
i think that the manager is nice to offer this opportunity, since, the first time that i did the waitressing @banquet events, i seriously sucked big time....luckily, this time, it wasn't so bad....because i believe no one may actually want to give a very decent pay to someone who does very little? and there was this fine-dining restaurant, similar to a banquet.....i guess i sucked at that? but that's water under the bridge. and i get better with time and experience.....i guess my weaknesses were heavy stuff and splitting the food among the guests.....and i didn't dare to move fast at all, lest i spill the food on the guests.....and generally, i think there is something about the theory of attraction. before i start, i would like to point out that the fellow waitresses are all super-duper pretty, and very pleasant looking.
sometimes, having a male manager/boss is an advantage if u are a female.
and male customers/guests seem to be very easy-going with certain female waitresses.
they are not fussy, if u spill a bit of water, or if mishaps happen, they say ''never mind...''
it is a fact that guys are more easy-going than girls.....in general.....
i think the worst manager i had was female? of course, there are friendly female managers i have encountered..... the most gossipy teacher who left a bad impression on me, is female too....
i used to be very feminist, and i think i would have taken the girls side.....because i used to think that parents favour boys over girls.....and i felt neglected.....
sometimes, i really wish i were a guy....no, all the time.....except that there are some parts of being a guy which i wouldn't like.....BUT i would really like the idea of NS.....
so basically, the guests were easy-going, managers were pretty nice....i could say? but i guess they were discussing about me....and my work performance. HOWEVER, i am always open to criticisms from my superiors, as i believe they have the right to criticise me. likewise, current teachers who are having a heck of time with me, my parents, customers, clients etc. all have the right to do so. my friends, who have to bear with me.....if i forced them to be friends, yes, criticise me all u want....
everything was okay, except one female guest was a bit hard to handle......but i think, it was pretty okay....i went a bit overboard, as i kept filling the drinks which were pretty much almost full already, as there are chunks of time, where u simply feel that there is nothing much u can do....anyway, something really spoilt my mood.
luckily, i was able to keep up a professional facade, and draw a fine line between the personal and the work-related.
guess what? i think i saw an ex-school teacher. no, i swear i saw her......but under the makeup, i think it serves as a wonderful canvas and mask, for anything which lies deep below.....because,i have seen first-hand, the effects of makeup, and the drastic changes it does to a person!its like, it can make someone look totally unrecognisable....and turn someone into a ravishing beauty.
back to the topic....i was trying not to get shocked or anything......so i was walking around their table etc...then i bet she was bitching about me the whole time.....about stupidity and one student she used to teach......and she didn't have to say anything......about names......anyway, i didn't hear 100%, maybe 90% at best....or 99%.....i feel so good, that i managed to pull it off....that i didn't do anything unprofessional.....
that i didn't lose my cool, didn't lose my temper.....
because, a vengeful and hateful person can do anything.....
and never offend a waitress, or a cook. u will be sorry if u do.....
but anyway, i think, that's history.....i mean, what's in the past is in the past.....and the lecturer were freaking right!
good managers don't have to do almost anything, they will direct the staff to do staff....well, i think the managers were good, except that i suck.....but knowing my standards, one of them still gave me this opportunity.....( i don't want to delve deeper into the reasons....., so i will just take it as a nice gesture?)
and the fellow waitresses were nice, as well as fellow waiters.....hiaz, i think it would be embarassing to ask for guy contact numbers...maybe one of them had to help me, cause' we were sharing tables...but i swear, some of them were nice?really nice....but i guess that they wouldn't want to give me their contact number....besides, i think i only saw them for a half a day?but anyway, the working hours are soo early at the hotel...and i feel embarassed if i were to ask to go back again..so i guess, i just left after everything was settled, between the management staff and me.....and somehow, i felt that the male managers were somehow nicer to female staff.....(???) after the banquet event?idk if i can survive in this industry....but there are times which will spur u on to be a waitress,although it is tiring.....and i guess i like it....and this industry is about service with a smile.....the thing is, managers are not so strict....and some managers are nice, as compared to sales....(in my short-sighted opinion)....and they care about staff welfare....
having said that, it is so hard, to put on a smile even though u are frowning inside, and put on that lil' facade.....like a charade....in school....as well as in the service industry....

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