and my mum keeps saying that nobody wants to be a waitress....and anyone can do a low-level skill....
and to add fuel to fire, even if i learn a skill faster than other people, i still feel stupid.....
when i fail some subjects, i am stupid. (with help only for weak subjects)
and if i pass all subjects, with help for only the weak ones, i am stupid....
when other people fail almost all, they are lazy......(even with help)
and if they fail almost all, and they get help for everything, they are considered lazy.....
how is that fair?
i really don`t know how to smile...happiness is so short-lived...
and the playlist in my mp3 consists of love ballads and heavy-metal songs, to suit my unpredictable and erratic emotions...
writing is theraupetic, even if nobody reads it....
get everything off my chest....
ps. sometimes, i don`t even want help or feel i need it....if the person is not good at helping.....
but sometimes i want it....but i don`t want to be dissed everytime....and i don`t have help for my strong subjects....at all....and my strong subjects do better...whereas, my weak subjects are so weak that help will help me pass.....and i am grateful....but does not mean that i will do well....
cause` i rather take subjects like humanities, except i don`t like it though i am strong.....at these things.....
if i took the subjects that i am inclined in, probably i would only need help for h2 maths? if it were for a level?
for diploma level, if i were to take something that i am strong in, maybe it would be okay?
i know i am strong in humanties, or maybe i was, cause` i felt that nobody would be able to help me, if i were weak.....
just feel like ranting everything....
and if you wanted to help someone, you will help him/her pursue his/her dreams, not change it into something deemed more ``feasible...``
henceforth, i am still a strong advocate of intelligence....reduces the need for unnecessary hard work....
and i am rather mediocre at english and chinese, thus, i decided to ``diversify``, to be average at different skills than be average at one skill.....same for languages....if i cannot be strong at one, maybe being average at all of them is better than being average in one...thus, i decided to pick up french....which is rather rudimentary.....
to me, the course i am studying now is banal and mundane....if i can change it when i go into 2nd diploma or degree, i would do it.....the thing is, when other people are weak in something or everything, or incapable, don`t keep hurling insults....its detrimental to self-esteem and stuffs.....sometimes, even if i can do something, i am perceived to be weak at that something or not know it at all....parents like this only know how to make people feel incapable and embarassed......i get shit everyday, from everywhere....in school, at home.....
for workplaces, in suitable locations, i do not get shit....thats why i love working, sometimes.....for outings, it depends....and the main thing is, teach a person how to fish, not give him the fish....so for weak people, i wonder if they can eat supplements or brain boosting foods? or some help once and for all....and the person would be okay again? seriously, i do not know what early intervention schools are for...are people being diagnosed and treated, but not cured for perceived deficiencies in intellectual abilites?then whats the point? how to cure someone from mild intellectual disabilites? moderate? severe?no offence, pardon me for being ignorant....
Are u optimistic?
Wierd?
Intuitive?
Anythin abt yourself.
- My Adores -
Chocolate?
Or maybe Vanilla?
Scented Candles?
Long walks at the beach perhaps?
- My Detests -
spoil brats perhaps?
or backstabbers?
maybe clowns?
why not cockroaches
- My Playlist -
Songs stuck in ur brain.
- The Conversations -