internet r/s
when i read xiaxue's story, it was quite touching....albeit, a little contrived......hmm, i think my parents are highly unsupportive of me meeting internet people, let alone, date them....thats a huge hurdle to cross.
so, i am going to go along with the blatant and honest truth. things are not going to work out....and can i sustain a r/s for so many years, to the extent of getting married? unlikely....yea, i don't have many friends, but there are times where i will be very extroverted and talk to almost everyone and try to get their contacts.....like 30 over contacts....ps. i have 359 contacts with phone numbers, maybe a huge percentage of them are expired, a lot hi-bye/acquaintances, workplaces etc......but i was super-sociable in the freshman orientation camp, the freshman dance party, and in most workplaces....such that someone even tried to grind on me....big mistake....maybe the 5 guys have moved on? maybe they are still holding on? but i think for the stalker one, the person probably is infatuated by the novelty of first love.....but i am certain other people have moved on...etc. the guy from my ex-workplace, the guy from my ex-ex-workplace....i say that those are the current potential r/s....cause` i still contact them often, or once in a while..or i see them near my hse by some unexplained circumstance..i have the contacts of the people who have possibly moved on, but i do not see or contact them actively.....
right now, i am very confused.....cause' of this issue, plus......the poly guy issue......cause' i guess that it is not so easy to like someone.....i may not have many friends, but i have enough friends, enough for some guys to propose a r/s with me.....
and at the rate it is going, i think its hell....right now, its about 5....one guy who came and contacted me after a long break....
one guy who asked me....(don't wanna reveal, too personal)....in school anyway.....2 guys who warrant the discussion of the abovementioned topic....and the guy....whose friends told him i am ugly....and he said he did not like me initally.
i don't want to get into an r/s right now....its really frustrating.....and i think, omg, don't tell me i still cannot get over the 11-12 mths stalkerish thing....and i still kind of like that guy.....but well, if things work out.....one day....
i guess, the person who really wants a r/s.....will actually come and join me on my trip to china....and actually join the same tour group, talk to me, get to know me, and really show interest in me....that is fate+attraction+devotion+commitment
fate=meet on same tour trip
attraction=real enamouration and adoration
devotion= willing to find me, even if i am at one of the four corners of the earth
commitment=willing to go the distance
i am not saying the tour trip which i am going on, but one thing for sure, if a guy likes me, he will track down my tour trip and tour guide, book the tour, talk to me, and take a liking to me, or ascertain his liking.....and no more negative internet connotations okay?? i really hate this internet thing....ps. not a total stranger kind....is the kind, like i know them, they sort of know me....but they show a fresh new start, clean break...no connotations etc., or just see how it works out....
i know it is a prevalent thing about internet r/s, but....i prefer the by-chance in real life thing.....
and you may call me retarded, ugly bitch etc., but why would i lie to you? anyway, this is my blog, and if you don't like reading it, you are free to leave. yea, i am a selfish bitch and a loner, please don`t do anything for me...you will regret it, i swear...just friends....pls.....or it gets tooo complicated...
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