you left me, walked out of my life.....but this is another reminder for me, that friendships are indeed important, however, friends come and go, and i think i don`t make it a dominant part of my life.....you left me, however, i am not broken or vulnerable.....we were looking for different things, u were looking for romance, i was looking for company.....it didn`t work out......and u will have great prospects with engineering and ur future gf......i wish u well....if u happen to read this anyway....
i don`t know if i will make it through today`s french test. i keep regurgitating the material and memorising it, but i fail to show some creativity by forming my own sentences......
and maybe, for the conversational part, it is going to be a huge pain in the ass, i bet.......how am i even going to ask proper qns? and i guess i am lost in a vastless sea.....i think i know the vocab and stuff.....but making a full convo?
keeping my fingers crossed.
nothing matters to me anymore.
i bet, ben ben aka lovelorn boy has moved on already.....its a too long time to keep hanging on....no matter what happens, life goes on.
homework to complete....arrgh. deadlines.
going on a holiday arnd 20 dec........hmm, maybe i will see lovelorn boy? i really don't know....
when he left me, i think i met some jerks.....and i really feel like stereotyping people from all educational pathways.....teenagers can be more horny than adults, more capable of violence, teachers can be perverts, people in rl can be worse than people online.....this is a crazy world...school can be a battlefield.....sometimes, i realise, i could just retailate, but i may end up inflicting greater hurt on my bullies than they ever inflicted on me, and they may end up lying in a grave....
really nice mariah carey song playing right now....don't know the title of the song......is the song titled ''the one?''
so many words unspoken between us.....i had so many things which i wanted to say, so many things that i didn't think of....now, they are all lost in the depths of my mind.....i have nothing to say, because i forgot what i wanted to say already.....its a crazy thing.....i cannot be convinced that teenage love exists......its like a crazy miracle, watching this twilight thing.....
what i really wanna do is let my hair down, let loose, have fun.....at the lan cafe and games arcade.....n maybe let nature take its course....rekindle friendships or romance or whatever....
ps.i was an A cup when i was 13....how can i stay in a constant influx?
so, no matter what, idiots do not know anything.....they know nothing at all....they don't know C70 is smaller than C80 by a lot of times.......they hardly know what is low profile, medium profile, and high profile....and i cannot be bothered with them, seriously......omg, i realise the frequency of seeing ben ben gets lesser and lesser!!!!he must have given up....
and i cannot stand it.....when people try to befriend u.....but religion again.....i find it very hard to accept for now....maybe when my life feels more ''stable'' and ''certain'' then i will go and seek my own destiny and religion....
hiaz.....its a crazy cycle-->indigestion-->tummy bloat-->eat less-->figure cmi
good cycle-->digestion-->no tummy bloat-->eat more-->nice figure....
Are u optimistic?
Wierd?
Intuitive?
Anythin abt yourself.
- My Adores -
Chocolate?
Or maybe Vanilla?
Scented Candles?
Long walks at the beach perhaps?
- My Detests -
spoil brats perhaps?
or backstabbers?
maybe clowns?
why not cockroaches
- My Playlist -
Songs stuck in ur brain.
- The Conversations -